Hello and Happy New Year! I know, I know the month of January is almost over and I know I have been a little MIA lately. Well a lot MIA! But since your here and reading this, let me explain…
To be honest there is no true explanation. From day one of my blogging journey I have pride myself on being transparent and honest. Honestly speaking, I just didn’t feel like it. I went through a period where I simply just didn’t feel like writing. I was uninspired, unmotivated, and discouraged. I also had a lot of life changes in the works such as a new promotion at work (YAY Me) and raising a very active and now 1 year old among many other things. On the days where I had free time I was either getting things done that I have neglected, trying to have a life or at least trying to get a few minutes of rest on top of the overall hustle and bustle of the holiday season. I just didn’t feel like writing. I also had nothing to write about. I mean sure there were plenty of things I could have written about but it would have been thrown together with lack of substance and depth for the sake of getting something up. I can’t work like that.
Writing is a art, my passion. I love putting together words that create meaningful thoughts. But this past year I didn’t feel that. I didn’t feel the lust to write.
I noticed for the larger part of 2018 spent a lot time focusing on others like family and friends, that i neglected to stop just long enough to do something for myself. Between work, a baby, life, and battling postpartum, I just never gave myself the time of space to just be. To think, and to creat. Writing is something that gives me a purpose and truly makes me happy. Being a mother does that for me but people often forget that there is more to a person then the title they carry and what they do on a daily basis. I am more then just Amber. Although I shift my crown and wear all my titles with pride, the one I don’t think about the most is the one that is self titled.
This year, 2019, although just another year, I did vow to make some changes for ME! I vow:
To live in the moment more
Allow change no matter how uncomfortable it is
Stop asking questions
Stop giving people a whole when I’m only getting half
Dive into my goals more and expand on my passions I love in the most purest way
Smile and laugh more
Stop comparing my life to others. God made each life special
Do things that make Amber happy unapologetically
Create a positive life bubble
I could list do much more but those are just to name a few. I want to be a better version of myself inside and out. Lets see what this year has to offer, the good, the bad, and the ugly!
Amber Marie Mack